New Beginnings...

Well it's 2009; and with that comes some harsh realities. Although, a new beginning as well.

By harsh realities I mean, that my marriage should be dissolved this year. That is an extremely sad situation. When I married him. I stood their in my wedding gown knowing I would be with him forever. Just like my parents. Now knowing I won't crushes me to the core. In a way I'll never be able to explain. The only people that will ever understand are those who have or had the same type of divorce I'm going thru ( read Below) It will feel you in. I'm extremely worried about my babies! I can't imagine what they are going thru. When I think about that, my heart sunks into my stomach and spreads to my arms. It's the worst feeling in the world. I cry for them all the time. I know with time they will be happier again; that's is what Haylee and I pray for every night!


Now the new beginnings,obviously several things will be changing. I do know somewhere in my heart for the better. So here is the list.

1. I want to go back to school for something I've always wanted to do. Which is exciting to me. To be in a job that I LOVE!

2. I will be moving into a new place!

3. I will be on my own and free to do what I want and how I want it!